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Sunday, April 24, 2005

2.4 was a total killer i swear.
i just thank god that's it's over now.
and pray hard that i'm able to pass.
was quite disappointed actually.
was supposed to run with some people.
but ended up running alone.
it was expected anyway.
just didn't expect it to happen so soon.
but nevermind,
at least i learn something from this.
shall not ask others to run with me next time.
shall just depend on myself.
(:
lunch with liting,yvonne,kang and company.
at kfc.
talked to liting and yvonne.
and liting and i have seen through many people.
and i mean many.
shall not specify.
but its the people around us.
enjoyed the day totally with them.
how i wish the 4 of us are in the same class.
mainly,me,litz,vin and eunice.
them i all LOVE!
:)

mugging today!
with liting and pratahh!
aniszah join us later.
talked alot too.
fun day.
full of laughters.
haha.
can't wait for tuesday to come.
me liting and pratahh at eunice's house!
bound to be a funfun day!
at least i know i will really enjoy myself.
most importantly,
i am myself when i'm with them!
:)
i love them!

i have seen through many people.
they are not who they seem to be.
people in my class.
people who are not in my class.
now i know what they are like.
they have revealed their true colours,
through the bits and pieces they've shown.
they are not as good as we think they are.
they are unreal.
and i have to be unreal too,
because i can't show them how i feel.
for i gotta live through the rest of my secondary school life with them.
i have lost myself totally.
i am not who i used to be.
i want to be real.
but something's stopping me.
i just can't.
why must people have motives behind things they do.
do they know what friendship is?
why are they making use of it and taking it for granted?
it is fragile.
once broken,
it can never be mended.
don't they know?
then why do they treat it as a spare?
is it very fun?
i beg to differ.
i can't stand it.
but at least,
through this,
i know where i stand,
i can learn who my true friends are.
those who stay true to me,
those who really care-at least this is what i think,
those who don't treat me as a spare.
i will treasure you.
thank you liting and von!
i love you both!
it was great talking to you both
(:
without you both,
i would not know how i'm gonna survive.
we've gone through thick and thin,
and i know,
you both are my friends.
i am certain.
LOVEES!!!(:

SYF tomorrow!
intoxicated yet nervous!
=/